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Arg. WTH?! Today I went to Sxxx College with my family after lunch. Going to ask for my study. First, there was a pretty girl come and talks with us. We talk a lots. Saying about my result, she dunno wat is UEC. She just noe SPM. Everyone noe in my sch,UEC is the most important, not da SPM. So my SPM not so good and UEC also same. Coz during UEC exam, I get sick. Very serious, that is my last teeth, it had grown up. Fever till 40'c. Cant eat cant sleep. So cant concentrate on my study. I noe my result was like wat?! S uni already dont wan me, so I hope this college can accept me. Lastly, she said my result canot accepted again. Again and again. It just so hurt. Then my dad try to asked her whether got other way to let me study. She said just can go back test SPM again. CRAZY ar. Then I said my sch SPM lesson, the teacher just go through, din take any action for teaching tis. Is real. Sometimes teacher still din come. One week twice. That all. How you guys think?

After that, she said she need asked for the principal. She walked up and down about 5 times. Lastly she asked me wanna study wat subj. I said I going to take design. Guess wat she answer??! "You noe how to draw?" me" I dont think so ( coz I'm not sure drawing those cute cute or creative de is call draw ma), " Arrr?? You dunno how to draw how u going to study??!!"( wat this mean??! look down? or wat ) me" But I'm interest of design". " Okie then. You wait here. I go ask principal".

Again, she go up. After 3 min. She came down. Asked me go interview with the principal. This interview was just like shit??!! I tot this college was the best. But. Tat principal gave me a bad memory. Her first word saying my SPM & UEC result so poor. Especially your eng, how u going to study? See your result, I know u not interested in study. Read 20min then u going to close your book. :( I noe my english very poor. Cant answer well, but you need say till like tat?! Look down on me? I cant even answer her, coz she dont have let me answer de time. Fine. I smile to you. Talk nicely with you. Say hi and thanks to you. But?? Excuse me, you are the principal!! Din even smile back or answered. She said I taking design just will waste da money, coz my eng not good, plus dunno how to design. Still say yellow means wat? You dare to explain to those teacher?!Canot!! Coz your eng too poor. If you want study, I also dont want collect your money, coz just will waste my dad money and also will laf by outside ppl. HEY!! I din learn yet how I noe design. How I noe yellow means wat???!! T_T Asking wat I doing now. Take care my nephew. She said ar? Your whole life just go take care your nephew. Any wrong?! Did I say I going to take care my whole life? IF YES, Y I STILL COME HERE!! Lastly, she had gave me one chance to study one semester. If fail, she going to kick me out. I said thanks to her. She din even smile or say welcome. THANKS PRINCIPAL!! I will never go back again!!! IT JUST SO HURT!!! CRIED.

My two fren were study in Sxxx. That is my dear Brenda and Jianny. I'm sorry to say your sch till like tat. I din mean wat. Just bcoz Segi for me is a nice and friendly sch, when I step in, the environment is pretty and big. They still using Apple com. Is a high class sch for me. but I dont noe tat principal will say like tat. Is real. It just so hurt. Even my eng so poor also canot say like tat. But I'm okie now. :) Sorry sorry and sorry. Dont angry me. Pls~~

I wish I can find one subj to study in this year. God bless me.

And also I will improve my english. Pls dont look down on me. It just so hurt. Guys, I will continue my study. Dont worry!! I wont waste any time even though I everyday at home. Pls dont say I'm free or wat. I'm not!! I will do something good for me. Cheers up!! And I need to Thanks mysis. She brought me to Damai just now. Coz I felt down. My bii din follow up :( Play with the sea and the sand. Feel better le. Thanks.

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After crying.

On the way up Damai. I miss him. T_T

Me with blue blue de sea.

XP.
Thanks mysis and her dear. Bring me up. ^^
My sis & me.
Raining... I miss you. I need you.
Smile Smile. Cheers up!!

TMR IS A WONDERFUL DAY. * hope so.

It's just so hurt.

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